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Subject:update
Time:04:20 pm
I haven't fallen off the world, I'm just chillin.

For anyone wondering
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Time:10:56 pm
salty broads make me laugh
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Subject:what more could I ask for?
Time:01:16 am
Current Mood:great
Honestly, I've got it made. I have a house, no a Home. A wonderful fiance. My fiance's family is great. They have made me feel more like I am supposed to be there. Not like they just have me around because I'm with Alyssa, but they actually want me there. I spent the majority of christmas eve, and all of christmas with her and her family. It was a great time. I was brought into some very nice traditions. Lyss and her sister got matching jammy's on christmas eve, and guess what. Her little brother and I got matching jammy's too. It was great. we woke up christmas morning and santa had stockings for all of us, he brought Lyss and her siblings a bunch of gifts. He even brought me a banzai tree. Lyss got a bunch of new preggo clothes. And the family got me a new carhart so I don't freeze roofing anymore. The best part was spending time with her entire family all day. Her grandparents are great. Aunts and uncles the same. And all the kids are a trip. Especially the little ones, tyler and cameron. They make it so I can't wait to have my little girl here. Christmas eve we spent some quality time with my Mom, Jessica, Josh and my grandparents. My mom got Lyss a card that made her cry. She has always said my mom didn't like her, and the card told her something very different. The card was precious.

So I have to be one of the happiest men on the face of the planet.
And I hope that everyone I know can get there too.
I hope the best for all of my friends and family both near and far.
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Subject:KING KONG
Time:11:52 pm
king kong was one hell of a movie. That gorilla is a fucking G. One of the best fight scenes I have ever seen, and the movie had alyssa jumping and crying like a baby by the end. VERY GOOD remake of a classic film. worth all 3+hours of your time, and your money.


Did I mention Alyssa was sobbing at the end......
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Subject:simulated delusions
Time:06:43 pm
Current Mood:feel like pissing on the world
So I have this friend. He stays in his house for the most part, and he only hangs out with a very select few people. He is border-line recluse. And for years I have tried to get him to come out, meet people. And now I think I should tell him I understand where he was coming from. I'm sick of watching people say not so pleasant things about people when they aren't around, but being their best bud to their face. Talking badly about someone one day then having them help the next. I'm even more sick of hearing these same persons utter words about others being faux. I'm sick of people trying to talk themselves up at someone else's expense, just to try and be "cool". YOu know what. Fuck being cool. WHo sets that standard anyways. Who gives a shit.

Stop trying to prove yourself better than the next. Because guess what.........you are not.
You are you, if you want to SEEM better than someone don't try and bring them down. I've got an idea......
Do something to better yourself!!! INevitably someone will see these actions and people will take notice. you don't have to talk yourself up and you don't need to talk anyone down. Take a minute to think about it.

If you talk yourself up it will make people who don't matter like you.
While at the same time the people who do matter look down on it.
be honest, because lying only causes pain.
and no matter what you will never be more than you are unless you take the time and courage to do it yourself.

THese are simply some thoughts that have been lingering in my head. If these words offend you you might want to think twice or even a third time about them.

I see why my friend deals with as little people as possible. It keeps you away from all the people that don't deserve your time, or help. I think I may do the same. If my Mortgage, doesn't go through I am going to talk to lyss about moving away.
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Time:05:58 pm
a cold day in hell I feel good,
atleast I feel as good as real feels,
if real even feels good.


I hate hearing shit people have to say. And I hate when they throw in some facts that make me have to think about the bullshit they spilled in the first place. Why are people the way they are? Why do they try to cause drama? Do the absolute shittiest things they can and not expect some form of repercussions for those actions?


I'm going recluse
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Subject:sometimes you have to let go, close your eyes, and let shit crash.
Time:12:16 pm
"Pour me another so I can forget you now,
Pour me another so I can come let you down,
pour me another so I can remember how true
that I am to this addiction of you now"

"Smart went crazy. Truth went trendy.
The story got lazy so I rewrote the ending.
Manipulated the entry. more user friendly.
Now a city full of painpills and tattoos defend me."

"Gotta lotta walls but the house is hollow,
Got a lot of holes, never found the shovel."

"she turned me onto music that I never heard before,
she told me stories from a cup I haven't learned to pour.
And I don't know what hurt it more, professional journals,
or perpetualburn holes scarring up the dirty floor"
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Subject:just stuff
Time:03:02 am
My mom called me and asked me what would happen to josh if she were to die. Like right now. My sis would just go to her dads, but josh doesn't have that. It kinda pissed me off, I don't think she should have had to ask me that. Josh is my brother. I was 16 when he was born. I helped raise him. He's my brother, my friend, and I hold him as my own. If my mom were to pass tonight I would take him in a heart beat. No questions asked. Hands down, I wouldn't let him go anywhere else.

I feel like crying some more
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Subject:if life was a boxer, I would be the boxing bag
Time:02:39 am
I don't even know what I was gonna say. Life has its way of beating us up. I think it always will. Just stepping stones to overcome. Its what makes us strong. Its what makes us whole. What makes us who we are and who we will become. sometimes I think its rougher than michigan streets after winter. twists and turns you don't want to deal with. then again every bad thing that has ever happened to me I actually am glad it did. Had they not I would not be who I am. I know I can make it through just about anything.
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Time:02:30 pm
Everything I ever hoped for just walked out the door.


I love you
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